Da Lat Highlands

I've told Chau many times in the past that I feel so guilty for not having the financial means to get her all that she wants and that I would not blame her at all if she were to find another man who does have a job. I am facing the first test of this. Today, she takes off with her friends to the Da Lat Highlands, a place where lovers and honeymooners go. What I'm scared of is that she'll come back with another man in her arms. But if it comes to that, I'll have to accept that and move on.

I have so much emotion invested in Chau and to lose her at this point would completely devastate me.

This only underscores the importance of getting a job here. I need to be financially-secure enough to provide for the woman of my dreams. It just seems to me that an MBA (with an emphasis in accounting) would be able to land at least an entry-level position in some accounting firm. But that's what I thought when I was in America. Experience is the key, not education. It's a lie that education is the key to success in life. Education helps, don't get me wrong. But there are no guarantees in this life.

If Chau comes back with another man, I'll just pick up the pieces and start all over again. Women in Vietnam are plentiful, but nothing like my Chau.

I am feeling very vulnerable at this point.